The wave had its way with me.
And I cried some more.
It was good.
Some of the pent up energy released. I asked God to help me find the ground, to help me stand up—to help me swim.
He said, “No, my daughter. Surrender. Surrender to the waves and relax.”
God is in control. So, uh…of course I did exactly as I was told. Nope. Not so much.
I heard, “surrender and relax.”
It sounds wonderful, unless you are like me, one who has to fight to the end before she surrenders.
God, are you flipping kidding me?
I’m sure I did not hear you correctly. I’m not a quitter! I can figure things out.
All I need you to do, God, is help me find my footing. Show me…
All I need you to do, God…is…
God patiently waited as I realized what I was saying. I was still trying to control and had the audacity to tell God that “all he had to do…”
I am not in control of anything but my own response to the situation.
In the chaos, God whispers…“I’ve got you. You’re safe.”
I am free to control my response.
What would it be?
Today I woke up to a world that is still spinning.
The energy remains intense. We are under a mandatory lockdown. This is no practice drill.
Right now I feel the wind more than I hear it. It is still intense, but the noise has quieted some with social distancing, which includes news and social media. I know the energy I feel—the wind—has the power to both destroy and create. The choice to how I respond is mine. I relax into the freedom that this wind is not mine to control.
Yesterday I tried to control the wind, and I was filled with an energy of fear that only led to chaos and more fear.
Today I surrender. I am still, and I listen to my heart. How are you today, heart? My brain tries to answer, but I quiet the voice in my head. How are you, heart? I listen to the rhythm as it beats in my chest. My heart is content. It is at rest.
I’m still physically at home, but like a child who loves to run with the wind, I open my arms and feel its power. It is an energy that fills me, not with destructive fear but with passion and purpose. With joy and expectation I invite this energy to propel me forward, allowing God to use the wind to create new paths and opportunities.
Today I hear the wind, and I am not afraid. I will not hide.
Today, I run out to greet and welcome it into my life. My heart is free, and my brain is alert, but at peace.
Will you be joining me? If you’re afraid, that’s okay. I was in that space yesterday, and I didn’t like that battle one bit. Shut off the TV, radio and social media. Silence the noise in your head—the stories of danger and drama. Let God speak to your heart. Notice the energy around you and respond without fear. Let’s surrender to the energy of the wind propelling us to create, to love and to be filled with joy.
This starts by giving yourself time and space to become quiet and reflective. “In quietness and trust is your strength.” I start out quiet, but then have so much emotion and gratitude that I have to get up and move. Loud music and dancing may ensue. You, however, may respond differently, and that’s a beautiful thing. Write a poem, hike through the woods, take a bath to relax and reflect, weed your garden, plant something new, bake, or work up a sweat at the gym. What makes your heart sing? Do that, and just be—be at peace.
I pray that the One who controls the wind empower you to be more than you ever thought you could be…in such a time as this.
PS: Sometimes we need some help to calm our physical and emotional body that is on high alert and working through fear. Sore to Soar® essential oil
is a beautiful blend that calms the wounded and/or fear-filled heart. Anger is an emotion the stems from fear, so Sore to Soar supports balancing that intense energy as well. A drop on the chest and hands, or even some in a bath/footbath with some Epsom salt is very relaxing.
Fear and anger can also affect sleep. Taking 2-4 of the nutritional supplement, Kalmz
, before bedtime is very helpful to assist in calming the intense energy causing your emotional heart and brain to stay on alert. I love to write in my journal before I go to sleep, starting with all the things I am grateful for. Then, if I still feel unsettled and burdened I write down all the things that concern me. My last sentence is “I am not in control of any of these. God, I give them to you. Good-night.”